Hi,

I guess i am feeling better right now thanks to my very good friend Kaytee. I would like to thank you for helping me think straight and preventing me from doing stupid stuff. Really appreciate it. :)

Well, now i am going to update all of you about ME... My final year paper will begin on the 30/1 all the way until the 7/2. I am studying and praying very hard hoping that i will pass all the papers because it is now or never. I do not want to repeat any module as it will suck because all the modules are all year long. I hope all of you will pray for me and all your sincere prayers will be rewarded by the Almighty. Another thing about me that you should know is that i will be starting my training tomorrow at new urban male as a sales ambassador. I know what most of you are thinking right now. Once i start working there, i will be proud and i will not regard all of you as my friend anymore. To tell you sincerely, that will not happen. But if that were to happen, just tell it to my face I will change myself and i will not be offended in any way at all.

That is all for now.

Yours ______,
HanZ HuMMeR

Continuation from the previous post...

The All-American Rejects

-It Ends Tonight

Your subtleties

They strangle me

I can’t explain myself at all.

And all the wants

And all the needs

All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving

Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

A falling star

Least I fall alone.

I can’t explain what you can’t explain.

You're finding things that you didn’t know

I look at you with such distain

The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving

Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

[Chorus]When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right

It’s too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side

It’s better than being on your side

It’s my fault when you're blind

It’s better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside

Now you’re the first to know

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right

It’s too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends when darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right

It’s too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Tonight, Insight

When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight.

This song best reflect what i am going through rite now. To whoever i have done wrong to or just expecting me to say sorry for all my silly or stupid things that i have done, please forgive me. I am sincerely and terribly sorry and i hope that nothing of such things will happen again. And that is my promise to you.

Argh,

I don't know whats up with me nowadays. I just feels like i have been living in this fantasy world all along and now i'm starting to see what life is all about, really. And i agree with those people who says that life sucks because nothing in life is fun. I use to think that i have the power to change the world but after a few incidents that happened recently, i can see myself becoming a nobody and i am like any ordinary people who have no power to make big decisions. Why??? Why must this happen to me now? Why not earlier? Life is just full of things that are fake. From the outside you think that somebody is good, but when you really get to know the person, they will hurt you deeply. So deep that you can see a hole that is impossible to be patch up back. I really have no idea what to make of anything rite now. Should i carry on living in this artificial life that i have been living in all this while?