Argh,

I don't know whats up with me nowadays. I just feels like i have been living in this fantasy world all along and now i'm starting to see what life is all about, really. And i agree with those people who says that life sucks because nothing in life is fun. I use to think that i have the power to change the world but after a few incidents that happened recently, i can see myself becoming a nobody and i am like any ordinary people who have no power to make big decisions. Why??? Why must this happen to me now? Why not earlier? Life is just full of things that are fake. From the outside you think that somebody is good, but when you really get to know the person, they will hurt you deeply. So deep that you can see a hole that is impossible to be patch up back. I really have no idea what to make of anything rite now. Should i carry on living in this artificial life that i have been living in all this while?